06:07 - Wednesday, Mar. 22, 2006
brain mutterings.
what to say?
what to say? i dunno. say the 1st thing that comes to mind! nah!! i need more sleep, but i have to start the day, and i got glass people coming, and maintenence men coming to replace lightbulbs!
how does cigarette tax benefit small children?? what to eat for breakfast? dropped eggs on toast. i have shopping to do today, outta coffee!!! motivation. clean the house. vaccumm. laundry. it has to be done. i have to do it, no houseboy after all.
NPR in the background. cat is fed and asleep again!!
im not feeling very creative today. sorry, folks. this is one of them days where i am fighting depression, i am tired of fighting depression. whay do I have to fight depression all the time? ugh. i cannot do that 'where im from meme' its too difficult right now.
i have fought homelessness, alcoholism, gambling. death. seems like i am fighting constantly.
ok enuff of this shit. i need to figure out how to not be miserable.
some one smack me, ok? when i was homeless, i longed for the ability to have my own place, and not a hotel room. now i got that. now what?
im gonna start the day by cooking a nice breakfast, and get right into cleaning. perhaps i will feel better later? i dunno.
i need to learn how to be happy. isnt that what we all want? but for me, the urge is magnified.
karl malden is 94 years old today!! woo!! if i should live that long~~!
imagine that, lets see, 94. im 47 now, its 2006, i will be 48 in october; i will be 94 in 46 years. thats in 2052!! will i still be here in diaryland in 2052?? what will diaryland look like in 2052? will they call the years 2050-2059 the fabulous 50's? how about the years 2020-2029? will they call that the roaring 20's? and again, the question remains, who is 'they'? hehe.
