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03:18 - Thursday, Mar. 23, 2006 i'll pass on the smacking ya idea... because if i did it - it meant you can do it to me and i won't have it. ha ha. instead i offer my friendship, love, and utmost respect. you have taken a lot of your life and turned it around and became something awesome and creative. i'm serious!!! a lot of people would agree with me. if i ever get more than 30 minutes of not being busy - i'm working on you a letter. i just need to actually write it out and mail it to ya ha ha. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- the meds only mask the problem the problem is still there, only hidden. theres no cure for bi-polar, only quick shiny fixes that are temporary. and the side effects!! sheesh!! no thanks!! i need to function in society, not be a blubbering idiot. so, i have decided to liberate my body from the drugs, and just ride the tide! (so sue me pogo!! haha) try to keep an even keel about things, and use diaryland on occasion to vent. which is cool. i got lots to be thankful for, and all in all, im doin ok!! im not sleeping on a pissy mat on the floor in some church gym, and eating a rotten sandwich!! i have a job, and i pay bills and go grocery shopping!! these things to me are novel, really. i mean, before, i never paid bills! i'd get a bill, and say, fuck that noise!! and not pay it! why should i? well, that was back when i had no function in life. yesterday, when i was grocery shopping, i passed by the meat section. and there was a sign put up there "chicken cordon bleu, 12 bucks for 4" people call me sir when im shopping. they dont follow me around waiting for me to shoplift!! and thats just swell!! short story. back a few years ago, toward the end of my hitchhiking daze, i found myself in south boston, virginia; and it was check day. this was back before everyone took atm cards for payment, so i had been to the atm machine, and got my wad of cash! i had arrived in town, and back then, i used to goto places like sizzler and get me a steak, and chow down! well there was no sizzler, but a black angus resturant there, so i went inside. now picture this, here i am, tee shirt, jeans, boots, and huge backpack, and smellin a lil ripe, having been on the road, but i was starving!! so, im in there, and its friday night, and everyone is all dressed up and smelling fresh, and the waitresses looked like models. so, im in there, and the gal sez to me, can i help you??? in that irritating voice. ya know that voice, like she was really saying, jay sus crist!! what the fuck do you want?? so, i sez table for one! and she sat me inna booth, i toss my back pack under the table, and order up!! and doncha know, they all had eagle eyes on me, customers and waitresses. i was the grubbiest thing that was in there!! hahaha!! and when i finshed my supper, the waitress came right over, and handed me the check. it came to about 35 bucks, and i really disapointed them, when i walked up to the cashier, and took out my wad o' cash money, and paid the bill. hahahahaa!!! they was looking to see if i was gonna dine and dash, but i let em down!!! now, the next morning, after i found a motel room, and had shit, showered and shaved, and put on fresh clothes, i went into another resturant for breakfast, this time, without the backpack. it was in the motel room, and i had got the room for the weekend. now, doncha know, these folks in the breakfast resturant didnt even give me a second look? no one stared at me, and i got no nervous stares. which goes to show you, people do judge a book by its cover, even though they shouldnt. welp. i have to work tonight, so im gonna try to get some sleep. im working from 4 pm to 8 am. thanks to all you swell people who dont judge this book by its cover!! you guys are swell!! thanks!!! now, go ahead, and leave a snidey comment!!! hehheeheeee!!!
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