05:07 - Sunday, Jul. 31, 2005
outta sorts, somewhat!
well sunday morning, muggy and sticky!
well, i been fighting depression the past few days here. i started to post something yesterday, but then, i just felt like, why bother? so now, i have to again force my self to do stuff. what i REALLY wanna do is shampoo my rug, but, i know that i have to sleep in the morning. right now, its a quarter to 4 and i am wide eyed awake here working. one of the new tenants has been tweeking his ass off all night, in and out up and down all during jason's shift. i came on at 1 am and he started in on this from 1 to 2 and at 2, i stopped him and told him that if he is doing drugs in his room, that is cause for termination of his lease; and he told me that he dont do drugs, but, he is all wigged out, and he went to his room and hasnt come out since i told him about the drug shit.
i think what i will do at 9 when i get done here is cook a good breakfast, and see if i can start on shampooing the rug. i really dont wanna wait til wednesday. i have to work monday night til tuesday morning, then sleep. all i been doing is work sleep work sleep! agggggg!!!
not much else going on here. doyle the manager got this puter finally un blocked! now i can get my gmail, and read my newspapers online here again on the office puter. i tell ya, i was getting pissed about it.
wednesday and friday is payday for me, good deal! i just been working too much lately, 89 hours for the pay period, i need a break. but, i like the money tho. who dont, really? there really is no middle ground here. i get frustrated when i dont get enuff hours, and i get aggravated when i get too much hours. and i really do wonder if i can hold down a regular job like cooking breakfast inna resturant for full time. i know one thing, if this puter wasnt here in the office, i'd go nuts, totally. but when i was younger, i had security jobs where i didnt even have a radio to listen to, and i made out ok.
weird dream again, albeit a short one. i was in some city, i dont know where, and i was meeting with tony soprano about something, then i was on a beach, in my naval uniform, and running like the wind! winding up and down crooked streets, like someone was chasing me. then i went into a store, thinking i can just slide on thru but i was trapped there, and i left and went down some alley, figuring that if i can make it downtown, i would be ok, then in the alley i came across a car with a smashed windshield, and two dead men inside! then i woke up with a screaming headache! ach! totally fucked up dream, making no sense at all!!
i used to have nightmares and wake up screaming, but i havent done that in a long time. i just wish i was normal like every one else. if reading this shit is bumming you out, im sorry.
i think what i will do next week is to go out and try to do some kind of constructive activity. i believe part of my problem is that i just dont get outside enough, lately it seems that all i do is goto wal mart and spend money. i wanna goto a few movies, but when i start to do that, i get there, then give up on that idea. i guess i just have to try a lil harder, thats all!
i went to applebees friday night, and ate a nice dinner, but i felt rushed, and looking at the other people there, i was i believe the only one eating by myself.
im just inna rut, and feel a lil fed up, and there is no good god damn reason for it.
to shampoo my carpet. im gonna have to pull everything out of my room, and theres a 2 to 3 hour job! maybe i will feel better once i do all that! then i can shampoo the rug, and really get things clean, and better organised. so, lets see if i feel geared up to do this at 9 am, like i feel now!
well, enough of this bickering. i just have to try to pull it together, i will be ok! i hope everbuddy has a fine sunday!!
FACT OF THE DAY
Young wizard Harry Potter is born today in 1980. Coincidentally a writer called Joanne Rowling was also born on the same day in 1965. Although born in England, Rowling lives and works in Edinburgh, Scotland.
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