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05:32 - Saturday, Mar. 25, 2006 ya know, i got my superman dvd from netflix, watched 2 episodes, and, doncha know, winter is not leaving without a fight!! the forcast for tonight calls for more snow later on in the evening, and a cold front will move in and take over! its been nice the past few days.
i am getting a lil sick and tired of this fill in business. ya, i get hours, and its just enough to live on, no extras. its frustrating. i dont get paid for this "assistant manager" gig i have here at home, just get reduced rent. fuck it all the god damn rent should be free, the shit i have to put up with here!!! i feel trapped. frustrated. i am sick and tired of dealing with drunks, retards, and fucked up people with issues. why cant i have a normal life where i goto work, and come home, and not have some retard knock on my door complaining about something. i dont know what to do. i like living here where i am at. i am afraid of making a move, i do not have a saftey net, so to speak. the only real friend s i have is here online. i know no one outside of this box. i am mainly afraid of actually going out and applying for a job, cause i am afraid of the rejection that will follow. if i quit my "job" here, i most likely will have to move. i dont wanna move. i got absolutely no way to move my stuff, and no money at all to move. every bit of money i have goes into rent food and bills. i got paid on the 20th, i got 6 bucks left in the bank, after bills and food. im angry and frustrated. and now i have to get ready to go downtown to deal with fuckheads.
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