07:33 - Thursday, Apr. 20, 2006
stress, only $3.99 a pound
my stress level is a bit up these days.
i dont like my stress level to go up as much as it has the past week. but, i guess what im going through now, is normal in the course of living in the mainstream, so to speak, as opposed to living on the street.
if you came here today to read something fun or entertaining, it aint happening today.
i got a problem, which is pretty severe to me, but maybe to you, its minor.
im not getting enough hours this month for basic living, and im upset about it.
i got 6 recurring bills every month plus rent, totalling just under $400 bux. and that dont include food, smokes, or busfare. no extras.
1.comcast-66.15
2.lingo-(telephone) 22.09
3.pet insurance- 9.95
4.bose- 41.58
5.netflix-10.65
6.cingular-43.79
7.rent-200.00
today is payday, and i got 235 bux for 30 hours. i have so far this pay period 32 hours, and i dont see anymore hours coming my way for the rest of the pay period, which ends on the 30th, and i get paid on the 5th. rent is due on the 5th. 98 bux is coming right off the top today, for bose, netflix and cingular.
i dont get paid for being assistant manager here, i get rent reduction, and i am expected to be here 90% of the time, to deal with the tenants here, and other things that may go on here.
i get paid for filling in for fat jason, sammy the samoan, and the moocher, and if i can, doyle. doyle works 8 to 4 monday thru friday, and gets a hefty salary, and when i fill in for him, he gets paid regardless if he works or not.
i cant get a part time job outside of here, because if i am needed at the hotel to fill in, if i have a pt job elseware, and have to be there, there will be a conflict.
fat jason is going to the phillipines on the 10th of next month, and i will have his hours, which is fine and dandy. that will be about 65 hours to be paid on the 20th of may, and another 65 to be paid on the 5th of june. no problems there.
but right now, i dont know what to do about today. i told doyle on monday i need hours, and he said, "i dont know about that". grrrrrrrrrr. moocher called me tuesday, and wanted me to work, claiming he was sick, and i worked his 16 tuesday night.i need at least 2 more 16's between now, and the 30th to make it. i dont see that happening. im not even sure if i can make the friggen rent. my stress level just went up thinking about it. when the 5th comes, and i cant make rent, i dont know whats gonna happen. i knew this situation would happen, it was bound to happen, and i dont know what to do about it.
i am STUCK in this situation, living from paycheck to paycheck, and at times, having a negative balance in the bank account cause of bills that have to be paid. when I say, "Im Broke" that means i have absolutely NO MONEY at all. ziltch. when others say "Im Broke" they have a few hundred in the bank. thats not "Im Broke." i cant just up and get a job right off the bat, boom! and then move out and if i did that, my rent would be at the least, 500 bucks, which means that i would have to find a job that paid maybe 10 bucks an hour. i dunno.
i just dont know what to do. it wont do any good at all asking doyle for hours, i done that, and got a negative reply. all i can do is sit and wait. its gonna be pretty fucked up if i cant pay the rent on the 5th.
so thats the drama for today.
