08:42 - Wednesday, Jan. 14, 2009
a crappy time of it.
well, its wednesday, and i need to find a job. like today. right now.
meanwhile, my transfer request to macys southcenter will be sent to them today, and hopefully i will hear back from them within the next coupla days.
and that friggen wave o'depression has hit once again.
time to breathe and try to get ahold of this stress that is trying to take over.
attitude adjustment time.
im just getting fed up with everything that is going on in my life right now, and i need to do something about it. if ya fed up, and dont do anything to change the situation, your emotions will brew like a cuppa earl grey tea until you explode. change the situation, change the circumstances, change your environment. im sick and tired of seeing nimrods and idiots at every turn. "gotta cigarette" "gotta quarter" "gimme gimme gimme". in your face gimme, i need i need i need.
whew.
im at the employment office this morning, and will be looking at things and applying for jobs online until the time runs out. then, its off to the library and an hour and a half on them puters, then, its off to connections and hopefully i can get a puter to look at on there. i need to get on the offensive, and get really rigorous about this job looking. i got one more pay check coming friday, and i will be using every blessed bit of that for rent at the mission, and busfare. no extras. one thing i noticed, when i venture out to other parts of the city, there are little or no knuckleheads, and its quite lovely. the urgency i am placing upon myself is a lil self inflicted, cause when the money runs out, which it will, and i have no money to pay for my bed, i will have to go back to UGM and a mat on the floor with the idiots. i dont need that.
i went to labor ready yesterday, and filled out an app like before, and this time, they wanted me to take this "personality test" and they use that to determine if you will be hired. well, i asked them if it in any way measures your job experience, and they said no, its what the corporate office put upon them and if i want a job there i must fill it out. well i say to that, a rousing FUCK DAT! and walked out. im NOT taking no friggen psych test to determine if im eligable to be hired. what the hell is this world coming to when they dont look at your qualifications? its all this new wave crap of mish mash. used to be when you walked into labor ready, you put ya name on the list and then, when a job opened up they called you and you went to work, and got ya money when you came back that evening. none of this psycho testing crapola. piss on em.
still reading? thanks!! things will get better, i know that, problem is with ME. i want it YESTERDAY. like a newly sober drunk, i want it NOW and cant wait and have zero patience. well i need to adjust that and i know that nothing will just fall in my lap and i need to go hustle and get busy and apply myself and get hired. so, i'll shaddup now, and you can make a snidy comment!! happy wednesday all!!
